I flinch every time I hear your name
And every time you cross my mind
I dig my nails into the soft
Flesh of my forearm
I've already bitten my nails to the bone
Going over our final moments
Dozens of crescents marks liter my arm
I can't cry my doubts away
Searching for what I did wrong
Reliving every smile and tear
My tears turn to blood
As my sorrow turns to anger
Our definitions of forever
Apparently differed greatly
I will repress every memory
That you are in
(You're in so many I don't think
I'd know myself without those memories)
I will destroy every part of myself
That you every touched
(I can still feel your hands on my back
And your lips on my neck)
I will burn every drawing
That I did of you
(There are so many because I could
Never make your eyes wild enough)
I will throw out the flannel
That you kept for months
(I can still smell your cologne on it
No matter how much I wash it)
I will deleted every photo
That I have of you
(The sooner I forget your face the better
I want stop seeing it when I close my eyes)
I will finally cut my unkempt hair
I regret your arms around me
And every kiss that made me blush
Every moment I loved you
Every time I smiled at the thought of you
If someone told me this was
How we would end
I would have laughed and then explained
That our love is stronger than that
But I guess it wasn't
I should have listened to them
I should have listened to myself
I knew it was too good to be true
I stand on the edge
A boulder in each pocket
Staring out at the blue
When will the water swallow me?
I hope a strong wind will pass by
And push me into the water
I could finally exhale my last breath
Is it still a suicide if I didn't jump?
I didn't choose to leave
The world chose to take me
Its not my fault, the wind did it
Will you hate me for this accident?
You plunged your hand into my chest
Searching for my heart
You ripped it out piece by piece
Looking for a reason to stay
You sifted through each memory
Every kiss and "I love you"
I suppose you didn't find what you needed
Because you walked out the door when you were done
Now I'm sitting crumpled on the floor
Staring at the shredded remains of my heart
There was nothing worth staying for
I wasn't worth staying for
She looked at him like he was the sun
She only exists in the summer ocean
When everything is beautiful and warm
She runs at the first sign of the cold
He looked at her like she was the moon
He could look at the night sky for hours
Trying to memorize each star's location
He will unravel her constellation
She will understand him more than the sea
He will know her more than the night
They will fight the unknown together
Until they are only pieces of the night sky as well
I'll never forgive you
For making me weak
For tricking me into thinking
That we would last forever
But I guess you never
Promised me anything
I noticed that you were changing
Before you even knew it
I'm glad you've grown into yourself
But you left me behind
Did I ever mean anything to you
Or was I just a waste of time?
Cause if you asked me the same question
I wouldn't know how to answer
Please forgive me
I hope to realize soon
I flinch every time I hear your name
And every time you cross my mind
I dig my nails into the soft
Flesh of my forearm
I've already bitten my nails to the bone
Going over our final moments
Dozens of crescents marks liter my arm
I can't cry my doubts away
Searching for what I did wrong
Reliving every smile and tear
My tears turn to blood
As my sorrow turns to anger
Our definitions of forever
Apparently differed greatly
I will repress every memory
That you are in
(You're in so many I don't think
I'd know myself without those memories)
I will destroy every part of myself
That you every touched
(I can still feel your hands on my back
And your lips on my neck)
I will burn every drawing
That I did of you
(There are so many because I could
Never make your eyes wild enough)
I will throw out the flannel
That you kept for months
(I can still smell your cologne on it
No matter how much I wash it)
I will deleted every photo
That I have of you
(The sooner I forget your face the better
I want stop seeing it when I close my eyes)
I will finally cut my unkempt hair
I regret your arms around me
And every kiss that made me blush
Every moment I loved you
Every time I smiled at the thought of you
If someone told me this was
How we would end
I would have laughed and then explained
That our love is stronger than that
But I guess it wasn't
I should have listened to them
I should have listened to myself
I knew it was too good to be true
I stand on the edge
A boulder in each pocket
Staring out at the blue
When will the water swallow me?
I hope a strong wind will pass by
And push me into the water
I could finally exhale my last breath
Is it still a suicide if I didn't jump?
I didn't choose to leave
The world chose to take me
Its not my fault, the wind did it
Will you hate me for this accident?
You plunged your hand into my chest
Searching for my heart
You ripped it out piece by piece
Looking for a reason to stay
You sifted through each memory
Every kiss and "I love you"
I suppose you didn't find what you needed
Because you walked out the door when you were done
Now I'm sitting crumpled on the floor
Staring at the shredded remains of my heart
There was nothing worth staying for
I wasn't worth staying for
She looked at him like he was the sun
She only exists in the summer ocean
When everything is beautiful and warm
She runs at the first sign of the cold
He looked at her like she was the moon
He could look at the night sky for hours
Trying to memorize each star's location
He will unravel her constellation
She will understand him more than the sea
He will know her more than the night
They will fight the unknown together
Until they are only pieces of the night sky as well
I'll never forgive you
For making me weak
For tricking me into thinking
That we would last forever
But I guess you never
Promised me anything
I noticed that you were changing
Before you even knew it
I'm glad you've grown into yourself
But you left me behind
Did I ever mean anything to you
Or was I just a waste of time?
Cause if you asked me the same question
I wouldn't know how to answer
Please forgive me
I hope to realize soon
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